About today and tonight

i just lit a sigarette.now ,i want to write something.
i was listening a conversation about people and their choices,who they are bla bla bla...
i could not listen them more because it was enough things that i heard.
conversation that i heard was about,hating people(or lets say it dislike,hate is a strong word),dicriminating gypsies,despise them,despise almost anyone who doesnt look or be the same.
i am not so sensitive person on these topics,i dont discriminate anyone but,still;i am not  sensitive one.
i am writing because i wanted to.as always
i dont see any point to see people different than you because of the things they can not change.like men ,women,gay ,lesbian,gypsy,disable,nationality.... and list goes like this.
it might seem natural to critisize other one who is different than you,its our defense mechanism to protect ourself from the evil on the world.(i think so,not sure).Thats why we become friends with people who similar with us,people we work with,people we go to school,because we have something common,we cannot critisize them so quickly because if we do,in a way we critisize ourself by doing it.
Thats why we can think bad things,say bad things or even do bad things to the people who are different than us.we do this,by doing this,we put ourself in a so called safe place,away from that someone can say anything bad for us.Because if you are strong enough to tell something bad to someone,you are strong enough to  protect yourself(in a way)
But we should remember this:WE have no RIGHT to do it.All the right you have ,its only the rights you have on your body.You can say or do anything to your system,even though its something bad,you have right to do it.Because it belongs to you.You may have power to change people,in a good way or bad one,no matter which,you should not force them or critisize them just because you are able to.Because you dont have this right.
i dont know why i am writing these about rights and power,may be because a person once who was weaker,can become most cruel person on the universe,because of now,he/she is able to or to have revenge or to feel better or just want to do.
no matter what you have been thorough,when you have a chance to get even,just dont do it.
Forgive and forget.Thats the only way you can find peace in your heart even everything around you collapse.

i dont remember who tolds this but its correct:when power of love overcomes the love of power,world will know peace.i believe that.thats my only choice.

love

ibra

All these things that i have done

it may sound familiar title to you,its a killer song from killer.i dont know why i started in this way,anyway;deal with it.
its been 7 months and for me,there is only one month left ...i am planning to enjoy my last month here in bucuresti,so;if i write something else during that time,it will include info about kids,staff that work in the center,educators,volunteers and drunk volunteers.not too drunk,just drunk enough to talk about things we have been through.For some volunteers,one glass of vine is enough,and for some,you need to spend a fortune to get drunk,around 30 lei(you may think that i am talking about myself,its not just correct,just wanted you to know)
i was out of romania because of a visa problem,i am a turkish citizen by the way if you wonder who needs visa for romania,no worries i am not alien,just turkish.
and when i came back,i have found maythings have changed in center,everywhere was green,and we have a pool now,we are lucky i know(jealous? :))i have found myself changed during that month.but i cannot the feeling all the kids(ok maybe not almost,may)running to you,jumping on you,trying to sit on your legs (3 kids on one leg)and when they want to leave their places,ibra tell copii here occupat ,its good enough reason to enjoy the month.
i dont know what i have done here,if its a good work or not,i am just happy to live all these things that i have done.All
i know we have 5 followers,no one will read probably,in a way,i dont care. i am writing because i wanted to,i am here because i wanted to.
Enjoy your time

ibra

don't waste your time

Yes, it’s my first post except the necessary one “who is Rasa Ambruleviciute?”. Probably because only now I feel I have to say something I feel could be useful for future volunteers or anybody who decided to read this blog.

Don’t waste your time.

Don’t waste your time for thinking how hard or useless it is to do something or how it would be in different conditions or … etc.

Enjoy every moment even it seems that you are getting crazy but believe me you won’t. And after few days you will laugh about this. So start immediately. Start to laugh when it’s hard, open your mind and just enjoy every moment you are given in your life.

If one year ago you would had told me that I’ll be somewhere in Romania disemboweling my size chicken (considering I am vegetarian) later putting them on a beer bottles and cooking more  or less all day I would had thought that you probably have specific sense of humor. But I did it (about level of pleasure we won’t discuss) and I really had a good time. Maybe because I was able not to concentrate in how, actually, disgusting it is, but in the people who surround me, our conversation in Romanian, English, Spanish, Russian and body-languages mix, laugh and screams, how tasty is coffee which you drink it in the coffee brakes with work colleagues, karaoke competition trying to outvoice  all cooking machineries…

Enjoy everything you do. Trust me. It’s not easy. But it’s worth a try.

Good luck.

Rasa