what just happened?

Hello,
I know its cliche but best way to start talking to people.Always.There are many things that i can tell you about project but,i prefer to go easy first.
During the time i have spent here, i have learnt many things.If you would ask whats the most
important thing,it is definitely trust.To trust people.I used to have issues on trusting people.
Even though i was very happy with this situation,i couldn't say the same thing for the
people around me .Something has happened.Right now just listening Guano apes in the living room after my italian lesson when a german girl reading her mail.Probably.
I 've been always like this .it was my thing.Don't trust anyone.I broke this code once before and
it didn't end well,that's i can tell.And that was my allaby to my insecurity to humans.
As i said ,something has happened.And i tried so hard not to and there was nothing i could do.
Everyone around me has been very natural,acting the way who they are,noone was acting(hmm,maybe
exept forum theatre ,not sure :))and anytime they have faced with a problem ,they shared it even
though sometimes they weren't so sure about it.It made me wonder:Could i do the same?Of course,the
answer was no back then.It was very long time ago,almost 2 months earlier.I know it sounds weird ,til my arrival,15 october;2 months was just a blink of an eye,that was it.Here in Bucharest,its not.It was longest and best 3 months of my short life.
I will try what happened to me even though i know its impossible.There are things in life that you cannot descibe,you know its there,happening but you cannot find the words ,maybe just because they just don't exist.there are many things like god(ok,if you don't believe him i have more examples :),like love or lightening.You can hear the thunder but only you can not see the lightening.(unless it doesn't crash to a place close to you )
And that happened to me.It just crashed top of my head.It made me dizzy little,though.And everything has changed.
At first i thought it was going to make me crazy but i know now.It has made me more calm that i've ever been.
I hope that it will happen to you.Maybe during your EVS time.
Who knows!